Archives: October 2010

Dumped

"We need to talk"
"It doesn't feel the same anymore."
"It's not you, its me."
"I think I just need some space."
"Let's just be friends."
"I'm just not ready for that kind of commitment."

However they say it, it all means the same thing: IT'S OVER! YOU'VE BEEN DUMPED! Some people can feel it coming, while others haven't got a clue until they're slapped in the face with the truth.

Either way, it doesn't feel too good.

You feel like you'll be depressed for the rest of your life and want to hit those people who say, "It's going to be okay, just give it time." Because no matter how true that statement is, it's the last thing you want to hear.

Me?  I was dumped by letter. I had no idea what was going on even after I read it three times.  I was sure I'd missed the part where he said, "I'm just joking, let's stay together forever." But it said the same thing it said the first time I read it: that he needed a break, he would call me tonight and we would talk about it.

Talk about gutting. It was the day after Valentine's Day, he had handed me the letter with a little white teddy bear. There was something in his eyes that told me something was going on, and the way he sort of whispered "sorry" as he turned and walked away, convinced me it wasn't good.

My parents couldn't console me, my friends couldn't make me laugh, the last thing I wanted to do was pray and remember that life would go on.  As far as I was concerned, life had stopped for a while and the longer I could keep it paused, the longer I could put off having to live again.

One thing that really helped me, was facing the places where we used to hang out together. There was a little coffee shop that we used to go to all the time, and at first, I refused to go there as it held too many memories.