I like to think of finding our calling as ‘knowing what we’re made for’. That is apart from the obvious thing which is to love God and worship him forever!
For me my specific calling became obvious a couple of years after I became a Christian. Jesus met with me for the first time when I was broken-hearted and I experienced a huge amount of His healing in my life. This meant I didn’t just believe in Him healing me but because I knew how it transformed my life I had a great desire to see other people receive it too. I remember reading 2 Corinthians 1 v 3-5 which talks about God comforting us in our troubles so that we might be able to comfort others in theirs. I also found it hugely impacting when I read Isaiah 61 v1 which says:
“The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me ... He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners.”
The passage goes on to say many more things regarding people that are broken-hearted, about those in despair and those that are mourning. For me this was not only a testimony of what had happened in my life but also seemed to be saying to me that I was also meant to be doing the same stuff for others.
So I got involved in prayer ministry, that is praying for others to be healed in the same way that I was. But I was also involved in other areas of church life too including youth work.
Things changed a lot when my husband and I helped plant and build the church Soul Survivor Watford. For many years I worked on a full-time but voluntary basis as the church Administrator and at times Projects Manager. In fact doing anything and everything that needed to be done at that moment in time!
Knowing this made me get very excited! It was empowering to realise that I did know this was what I was for. From that moment I felt an incredible freedom. Now when I am asked to do something I measure it up against my slogan to see if it fits with what I am made for. This means that I now say ‘no’ without feeling guilty and can put much more of my time and energy into the things that I know God has for me to do.
I have heard many young people getting worried or upset because they don’t know what their calling is. Firstly I would say it is to be a follower of Jesus, to worship and love him because he is worth it, not for what he does or what he gives.
We all need to live our lives knowing that if Jesus chooses to stop using us tomorrow our relationship with him would not change. Our value cannot be in what we do for him or in what he has called us to do. I do what I do out of my response to him loving me. I cannot possibly pay him back for all the healing he has done in my life – so I don’t try.
If you’re trying to work out your calling I’d encourage you not to strive to find it out. Think of what you do in your Christian life that gives you the most joy, when you feel most alive and closest to Jesus. For me it is exquisite when I am seeing Jesus bringing inner healing to someone. It is like nothing else on earth. He is allowing me to watch what He is doing. What a privilege. What a God!
Jeannie is great. She's been involved in Soul Survivor Watford and the Soul Survivor summer events since they began back in the early nineties. She's written a book and regularly speaks around the place on the Holy Spirit and the gifts he gives us.